1 half of a chicken make sure you’ve let it sit with lemon juice and salt for 15 minutes then wash it off with water

In a big stainless steel pot add the following

1 teaspoon turmeric

1 teaspoon ginger

1 teaspoon 1000 spice

Salt to taste

1/2 teaspoon pepper

1 tablespoon oil

2 onions sliced long ways

Fenugreek 1 cup sort out the rocks and weed seeds then in a small separate pan bring 2 cups water to boil add seeds boil 3 minutes then strain off the water and add the seeds to big pot with spices chicken

3 whole bulbs of garlic peeledB or more I use more

Small bunch of parsley washed add to pot

2 Roma tomatoes sliced in half

Add water to cover chicken and boil until the chicken is done

Serve over millwee bread

Millwee bread

Lockdown continues………

This lockdown is exhausting can’t go anywhere ……

Stay inside

Clean the house ……

Chase the baby ….

She’s making a mess ……..

Pulling all my underwear out of the draws

Cook food …..

Stare at the walls oh those walls are ugly in color who chooses to paint the living room walls baby poop green ?

Get bored staring at baby poop green walls go to kitchen stare at those wall not much better it’s blood red and baby poop yellow wonder why previous owners choose the wall paint in those colors did they walk into the paint store and say I’ll take all the rejected messed up paint in poop tone!

Realize baby is needing a change of diaper more poop colors this one smells too

Give baby a bath because she exploded poop everywhere somehow now she’s splashed water everywhere …..

Clean up water and wash dirty clothes and load dishwasher look outside and realize it’s having a freaky hail storm with hail the size of marbles…..

Can’t go to stores most are closed……

Libraries, shopping malls, playgrounds and schools are closed for who knows how long….

I pray to Allah to protect the children and people from all this weird stuff going around

The ones that are open don’t have what you need because some stupid ass decided they need 24 pallets of diapers baby wipes toilet paper , bleach wipes , bleach and all other forms of disinfectant spray hand sanitizer and gloves and masks even though they don’t work in a essential job

Finally it’s dark dinners done and I can go lay in bed and cry myself to sleep I miss my children who are in lockdown in Morocco I’m scared and now there’s no social contact everything is disconnected I am discouraged my thoughts are jumbled and my dreams disconcerting

I pray to Allah and have tears running down my face

I can’t control anything I am powerless and scare very scared

I wake multiple times feeling pain and panicked it has wrapped around my heart and squeezes I can’t breathe I can’t talk about it

Drifting is honestly how I feel like I’m stuck in slow motion and numb I’m exhausted and antsy…

When will it end?

Will life ever be normal again?

Will we be able to pick up and move on or will this virus change everything forever?

Allah protect everyone and give me strength to make it through this

Freak Hail Storm

My thoughts on lockdown and hoarding

We are in lockdown because of a virus we can’t go to the parks all the libraries are closed all our doctors appointments that are nonessential have been canceled and all we do now is stay home and try to entertain ourselves which is very hard when you have a very active toddler who doesn’t understand that you can’t go to the parks and play because you could get sick so we stay home and try to entertain ourselves I think the worst part about this virus is the way people are hoarding stuff it’s ridiculous it took us three weeks to be able to actually get a small amount of toilet paper because some people go overboard and buy cases upon cases of toilet paper I mean seriously you’re not going to use that many cases of toilet paper. And to the people who are hoarding the sanitizer why Share it And help keep people safe don’t horde stuff it’s not nice and it’s not gonna help you in the end it could honestly hurt you in the end if you’re hoarding everything and other people can’t get it there are some people who have to work because there is essential and don’t have the luxury of staying home these include doctors nurses police officers fire truck personnel public transit personnel they are working hard to keep everyone safe and to make sure they are able to get to their jobs they need to be able to get hand sanitizer toilet paper cleaning supplies if everyone runs to the store and hordes everything it hurts people so stop hoarding stuff

Sugar Free Cranberry Sauce

One can frozen orange juice concentrate thawed

1 bag fresh cranberries

1/2 teaspoon cinnamon

1/4 teaspoon of ginger

1/8 teaspoon nutmeg

1/8 teaspoon of salt

Place everything in saucepan and bring to boil cook until cranberries pop.

About 10 minutes the turn off, can serve hot or cold.

* note you can use apple juice concentrate instead of orange juice


♥ Du’a ♥

Oh ALLAH, I have no money, but I have You. I am rich.

Oh ALLAH, I have no freedom, but I believe in You. I am free.

Oh ALLAH, I have no patience, but I read Your Quran. I am calm.

Oh ALLAH, I get no respect, but You listen to my dua. I am proud.

Oh ALLAH, I have no time, but I think of Jannah. I have forever.

Oh ALLAH, I have much time, but I look at Your Signs. I have today.

Oh ALLAH, I feel so weak, but I fast Ramadan. I am strong.

Oh ALLAH, I feel so tired, but I make dua. I open my eyes.

Oh ALLAH, I feel so dirty, but I repent to You. I am cleansed.

Oh ALLAH, I feel so depressed, but I remember you. I am at peace.

Oh ALLAH, I feel so lost, but I follow Your Commands. I am safe.

Oh ALLAH, nobody listens, but You never turn your back on me. I am grateful.

Oh ALLAH, my heart breaks, but I imagine meeting You. My heart finds rest.

Oh ALLAH, I cry every night, but I make wudu. I wash away my tears.

Oh ALLAH, I feel so alone, but I pray to You..I feel peaceful…

Being A Mom

Being a mom is difficult.

Being a mom trying to find time to shower is difficult.

Being a mom trying to find time to eat is difficult.

Being a mom trying to find time to do laundry is difficult.

Being a mom trying to find time to cook breakfast, lunch, or dinner is difficult.

Being a mom who pumps is difficult.

Being a mom who is trying to stop your milk supply is difficult.

Being a mom who oversupplies is difficult.

Being a mom who supplies just enough is difficult.

Being a mom who undersupplies is difficult.

Being a stay at home mom is difficult.

Being a part time working mom is difficult.

Being a full time working mom is difficult.

Being a mom of a child with medical conditions is difficult.

Being a mom of a healthy child is difficult.

Being a mom is difficult.

It is hard to invest every waking moment into your child. It is hard to lose endless hours of sleep. It is hard to forget about the person you once were. It is hard being a mom with postpartum depression and still yet moving forward.

Everyone tells you about the sleepless nights, about the endless diaper changes, and about how expensive it gets. Yet nobody tells you about the spit up stained shirts, the excessive hours of pumping, the struggle of hearing your baby crying, the never having enough time in a day.

Nobody tells you just exactly how hard it will be.

Nobody tells you thank you for how hard you work.

But you are a mom. You are a hero to your baby. You can have them from crying to comfortable sleeping in your arms. You are the savior of your baby. You are the producer of their meals. Your baby is what makes it all worth while. To be able to watch them grow. Take their first steps. Saying their first word. Growing in their first tooth.

You are a mother and at the end of the day you feel like your work goes unnoticed just know, your baby is proud of you.

Proud of you as their mom.

You are doing a great job, don’t be to hard on yourself.


O Allah, grant the Muslim youth (men) pious and righteous wives, and make from their offspring Muslims who will rise the banner of Islam, and carry the Quran (in their hearts), and who will order good and forbid evil.
O Allah, grant the daughters of the Muslims pious and righteous husbands, and make them pious, obedient (to Allah and their husbands), repentance, not showing themselves (wearing hijjab).