Homemade Spaghetti Sauce

12 tomatoes 5 giant ones the rest small

2 bulbs of garlic peeled and crushed up

1 white sweet onion chopped

Sweet basil 1 bunch

Oregano 1 bunch

Marjoram 1 bunch

1 cup mushrooms chopped

Salt and pepper to taste

Place in saucepan and cover with water bring to boil then reduce heat and simmer until everything is mushy remove from heat add salt and pepper to taste . Remove herb stems and cool down then run through a blender and serve with pasta or can use as pizza sauce

I cooked my sauce for about two hours

Sauce before blending
Sauce after running through a blender

Miscarriages and pregnancy loss a poem:

Whether you lost your baby at 6 weeks.

Whether you lost your baby at 12 weeks.

Whether you lost your baby at 16 weeks.

Whether you lost your baby at 20 weeks.

Whether it is your first loss.

Whether it is your second loss.

Whether it is your third loss.

Whether is is your fourth loss.

Whether you have not had a child.

Whether you already have a child.

Whether you have two children.

Whether you have three children or more.

Whether you lost your baby in your teens.

Whether you lost your baby in your twenties.

Whether you lost your baby in your thirties.

Whether you lost your baby in your forties.

Whether you lost your baby through ivf.

Whether you lost your baby through unplanned pregnancy.

Whether you lost your baby through planned pregnancy.

Whether you lost your baby through surrogacy.

Your pregnancy loss matters.

Your grief matters.

Your tears matter.

You matter.

#iam1in4 #pregnancyloss #miscarriage

Easy fridge Pickles

These are spicy dills and they are not sweet. So adjust spices to your liking. We use regular cucumbers. They are great on hamburgers and sandwiches or just to eat out of the jar. Once the jar is empty, add more cucumbers to the pickle brine that way you can get a few uses out of the vinegar and spices. I made 3 quarts last weekend and we’ve already emptied one jar.

3-4 Cucumbers
4 cups water
2 cups white vinegar
2 tablespoons kosher salt
1 teaspoon sugar
2 tbsp dill weed
2 crumbled bay leaves
2tbsp dill seed
2 Tbsp peppercorns
1 tbsp crushed red pepper
1 tbsp minced garlic per jar

Slice cucumbers into 1/4 inch slices or spears.

Brine: combine water, vinegar, salt, and sugar in medium sauce pan. Bring to a boil and swirl to make sugar and salt dissolve. Remove from heat and cool to room temperature.

Add cucumbers to jars. Do not pack them super tight. You want room for the brine.

Mix all the dry ingredients together. Add 2 tbsp to each jar. Add 1 tbsp garlic each jar. Finish by adding enough brine to cover the cucumbers. Seal with an airtight lid and store in the refrigerator for at least one week. We actually start eating them after 24 hrs. Pickles should be good for at least 6-8weeks keep refrigerated .

Can use cucumbers, tomatoes, or hot peppers .

Baked Vegetables

1 large zucchini sliced in circles

5 big sweet meat eater tomatoes sliced

2 onions slice

3 bulbs of garlic peeled then cut into half

1/2 cup olive oil place zucchini in bowl coat with oil

In baking dish I used a rectangle one oil bottom and sides with some of the olive oil

Make rows of zucchini, onion and tomatoes then take chopped garlic and sprinkle between the rows I got 3 rows then take bowl that you tossed the zucchini with oil using a rubber spatula scrape remaining oil over vegetables then salt to taste can use pepper if you want to

Bake in oven 375 for half a hour Serve hot enjoy

Old School Muffins

Blueberry sugar free muffins

Dry ingredients

All purpose flour 2 1/4 cups * see note

Baking powder 2 teaspoon

Baking soda 1 teaspoon

Salt 1/4 teaspoon

Combine all dry ingredients together and set aside.

Wet ingredients

Sugar 1/2 cup * I replace the sugar with apple sauce 1/2 cup

Oil 1/2 cup * I replace the oil with 1/2 cup of apple sauce if I feel like it

Eggs* 2 large if they are small I use 3

Yogurt 1 cup unless dairy free then replace with apple sauce*

Bits and pieces 1-2 cups mix with dry before mixing into wet

Mix wet together then fold in dry .

Bake in muffin tins at 375F for 18-20 minutes

Yields 12 standard Muffins or 24 mini Muffins

Note* yogurt can be replaced with mashed banana , nut butters depending on which kind of Muffins you are making

Note* if egg free replace egg with
Replacement:
1 tablespoon ground flax seeds and 3 tablespoons of water = 1 large egg

Note* I use oatmeal rolled old fashioned 1 cup in a blender until it’s fine like flour . I use 1/4 cup flaxseeds ground in blender and bran flakes 1/4 cup and I use wheat flour instead of white flour

Bits and pieces can be dried fruits , Chocolate chips , nuts ect

Baghrir Made With Sourdough Starter

1 cup active bubbly sourdough starter

https://iamhomesteader.com/sourdough-starter/
Bubbly sourdough starter
I used this recipe to start my sourdough starter

1 1/2 cups semolina flour

Pinch of salt

1 to 1 &1/2 cups warm water enough to make soupy batter

Combine all ingredients in a blender, blend on high for 3 minutes then let sit for 15/25 minutes until doubles in size then cook in hot nonstick pan until bubbles pop and it’s dry

Baghrir mixture is soupy thick and bubbly mix before cooking
Cooking has bubbles that pop when done
Cooked baghrir

Baghrir

Serve hot with a mixture of honey and butter melted together or honey and olive oil melted together

Millwee

1 cup semolina flour

1 cup white flour

1 teaspoon salt* if watching sodium intake omit the salt

1 cup warm water

Butter 1 stick soften

Olive oil 1/2 cup to pour over soften butter

Olive oil as needed for coating hands and dough

Place the flour and salt in a kitchen aide mixer mix with your hand until combined make a well in flour and add water then using a dough hook mix until blended then beat on high for 15 minutes once throughly mixed take dough out and oil well and let sit for 15 minutes then divide into ball I do 6 for this recipe coat balls in oil let rest for 15 minutes then take one ball oil hands well and surface your working on .

Note you can mix this by hand it just tires the arms and takes a while longer you mix the liquid into the flour then knead it for 15 minutes

Using hands and some of the oil and butter flatten and stretch thinly without breaking once thin rub butter and oil onto it sprinkle with a bit of semolina flour and fold into thirds thin roll into round rolls and stretch the ends and tuck into the center then set aside after you oil it , repeat until done.

Note some people just fold and make square instead of rolling into tubes and flattening either way is fine I’ll post pictures of both

To cook use a cast iron pan or if you have a Moroccan bread pan for stove top cooking use that a griddle will also work.

Heat over medium heat pan is hot enough when a few small drops of water dance and disappears

If doing the round kind flatten to about 1/4 thick cook until golden brown on one side flip and cook until golden brown

Ways to serve

Serve hot with tea can put jelly on it ,

Serve as base for marshooes the chicken recipe tear into small pieces https://diaryofarevertmuslimah.wordpress.com/2020/04/02/marshooes/

Can store in freezer and reheat later if doing this make sure they are completely cooled down and place waxed paper between the breads then wrap in plastic wrap and place in gallon size zipper freeze bag and freeze

To thaw take out and place on counter once thawed can warm on stove top or oven

Note there’s a variation to this recipe where you add 1 teaspoon yeast and follow the same directions

Folded into thirds before rolling
Round roll

Moroccan Lentils

1 cup raw dried lentils sorted and cleaned

5 cloves of garlic peeled and chopped

1 onion diced

1 small handful of parsley washed and minced

1/2 teaspoon each of sweet paprika

1/2 teaspoon cumin

1/2 teaspoon ginger

1/2 teaspoon turmeric

1/2 teaspoon pepper

1/2 teaspoon salt or to taste can be cooked without salt

2 Roma Tomatoes grated with a cheese grater

1 tablespoon olive oil

In sauce pan place oil over medium heat add onion, garlic and spices with lentils and sauté for 5 minutes then add the parsley and tomato add 3 cups of water and bring to boil lower heat and simmer until lentils are tender then serve hot with a spoon of olive oil stirred into it , keep a eye on the liquid and if needed add more .

Note, I am using lentils from Morocco these are different than the lentils found in USA as the Moroccan lentils are firmer . Use the brown colored lentils

Moroccan Lentils sorting them on the tea tray
Moroccan lentils

Marshooes

1 half of a chicken make sure you’ve let it sit with lemon juice and salt for 15 minutes then wash it off with water

In a big stainless steel pot add the following

1 teaspoon turmeric

1 teaspoon ginger

1 teaspoon 1000 spice

Salt to taste

1/2 teaspoon pepper

1 tablespoon oil

2 onions sliced long ways

Fenugreek 1 cup sort out the rocks and weed seeds then in a small separate pan bring 2 cups water to boil add seeds boil 3 minutes then strain off the water and add the seeds to big pot with spices chicken

3 whole bulbs of garlic peeledB or more I use more

Small bunch of parsley washed add to pot

2 Roma tomatoes sliced in half

Add water to cover chicken and boil until the chicken is done

Serve over millwee bread

Millwee bread

Lockdown continues………

This lockdown is exhausting can’t go anywhere ……

Stay inside

Clean the house ……

Chase the baby ….

She’s making a mess ……..

Pulling all my underwear out of the draws

Cook food …..

Stare at the walls oh those walls are ugly in color who chooses to paint the living room walls baby poop green ?

Get bored staring at baby poop green walls go to kitchen stare at those wall not much better it’s blood red and baby poop yellow wonder why previous owners choose the wall paint in those colors did they walk into the paint store and say I’ll take all the rejected messed up paint in poop tone!

Realize baby is needing a change of diaper more poop colors this one smells too

Give baby a bath because she exploded poop everywhere somehow now she’s splashed water everywhere …..

Clean up water and wash dirty clothes and load dishwasher look outside and realize it’s having a freaky hail storm with hail the size of marbles…..

Can’t go to stores most are closed……

Libraries, shopping malls, playgrounds and schools are closed for who knows how long….

I pray to Allah to protect the children and people from all this weird stuff going around

The ones that are open don’t have what you need because some stupid ass decided they need 24 pallets of diapers baby wipes toilet paper , bleach wipes , bleach and all other forms of disinfectant spray hand sanitizer and gloves and masks even though they don’t work in a essential job

Finally it’s dark dinners done and I can go lay in bed and cry myself to sleep I miss my children who are in lockdown in Morocco I’m scared and now there’s no social contact everything is disconnected I am discouraged my thoughts are jumbled and my dreams disconcerting

I pray to Allah and have tears running down my face

I can’t control anything I am powerless and scare very scared

I wake multiple times feeling pain and panicked it has wrapped around my heart and squeezes I can’t breathe I can’t talk about it

Drifting is honestly how I feel like I’m stuck in slow motion and numb I’m exhausted and antsy…

When will it end?

Will life ever be normal again?

Will we be able to pick up and move on or will this virus change everything forever?

Allah protect everyone and give me strength to make it through this

Freak Hail Storm