This lockdown is exhausting can’t go anywhere ……
Clean the house ……
Chase the baby ….
She’s making a mess ……..
Pulling all my underwear out of the draws
Cook food …..
Stare at the walls oh those walls are ugly in color who chooses to paint the living room walls baby poop green ?
Get bored staring at baby poop green walls go to kitchen stare at those wall not much better it’s blood red and baby poop yellow wonder why previous owners choose the wall paint in those colors did they walk into the paint store and say I’ll take all the rejected messed up paint in poop tone!
Realize baby is needing a change of diaper more poop colors this one smells too
Give baby a bath because she exploded poop everywhere somehow now she’s splashed water everywhere …..
Clean up water and wash dirty clothes and load dishwasher look outside and realize it’s having a freaky hail storm with hail the size of marbles…..
Can’t go to stores most are closed……
Libraries, shopping malls, playgrounds and schools are closed for who knows how long….
I pray to Allah to protect the children and people from all this weird stuff going around
The ones that are open don’t have what you need because some stupid ass decided they need 24 pallets of diapers baby wipes toilet paper , bleach wipes , bleach and all other forms of disinfectant spray hand sanitizer and gloves and masks even though they don’t work in a essential job
Finally it’s dark dinners done and I can go lay in bed and cry myself to sleep I miss my children who are in lockdown in Morocco I’m scared and now there’s no social contact everything is disconnected I am discouraged my thoughts are jumbled and my dreams disconcerting
I pray to Allah and have tears running down my face
I can’t control anything I am powerless and scare very scared
I wake multiple times feeling pain and panicked it has wrapped around my heart and squeezes I can’t breathe I can’t talk about it
Drifting is honestly how I feel like I’m stuck in slow motion and numb I’m exhausted and antsy…
When will it end?
Will life ever be normal again?
Will we be able to pick up and move on or will this virus change everything forever?
Allah protect everyone and give me strength to make it through this