Ramadan 2017 

As Salam Alikum Readers

Ramadan has began and I feel alone and lonely , haven’t been having a easy time and I have been dealing with health issues my iron storage levels or ferritin levels as the doctors call it is very low and I was told by two different doctors not to fast.

I have also been struggling with my mood disorder and feeling alone even though I am constantly surrounded by people , I work five days a week and am around people but don’t really hang out with or interact with anyone I am polite and make small talk but I don’t really know anyone if that makes sense.

I haven’t been feeling myself I have been dealing with sleep issues I have a hard time falling and staying asleep it doesn’t help that my husband has restless leg syndrome and kicks at night, I’ve tried putting pillows between us but all that did was cause a fight over the pillows ugh…..

I feel discouraged and disconnected from everything I am having trouble with my prayers and most of the time during prayers and right before bedtime I find myself crying.

Soul 

Clay then then the soul was added
Take a deep breath and focus your mind

To your inner
Feel your soul

It is in us 
Man Adam a.s. Was created with clay 

A clay statue 
Then the soul was blown into the clay statue,

So humans became animated 
Take deep breath

Focus your mind 

To your inner
Feel your soul 

It resides inside you
Worship Allah 

With 

Body and Soul
Take a deep breath 

Focus your mind

To your inner……                    

Halba chicken with millwee 

1 cup halba seeds boiled (see note below). 

2 cloves garlic, peeled ends cut off

1 tablespoon sem smelly butter (see note below). 

1 tablespoon tumeric, 

1 tablespoon ginger, 

1 tablespoon 100 spices

1/2 tablespoon black pepper 

1/2 tablespoon salt or to taste) (can add salt after cooked.) 

1/2 cup oil

5 onions thinly-sliced 

1 bunch parsley, minced

5-6 small tomatoes cut in half

1 whole chicken (prepped see note at bottom )

Water enough to cover chicken

I use a pressure cooker can use a big pot but will take longer

Heat the oil then add onions,garlic, minced parsley; all the spices and halba seeds saute , risne chicken then add to pan cook about 15 minutes then add water and tomatoes. 

Put top on pressure cooker and tightly seal cook about 45 minutes, is done when chicken is tinder and about to fall off bone

Serve over bread called millwee (type of moroccan bread ) torn into small pieces place chicken in center then ladle sauce around and over it serve hot

(Note to prep halba seeds place in small sauce pan with water bring to boil. Boil 5 minutes; drain water off then add to pot .)

(sem smelly butter is type of moroccan butter)

(Note: to prep chicken in large bowl place washed chicken sprinkle salt all over chicken rub in then take one lemon roll on countertop then cut in half squeeze out lemon juice, onto chicken let sit at least 15 minutes.’ this is were i prepared other ingredients. 

Rinse chicken then add to pan .)

Feeling Sad , Can’t Fast

As Salam Alikum Readers

I am feeling a bit sad and melancholy, I’ve been dealing with a few health issues and got the results of my blood work back and my ferritin levels are very low they are a ten and I had a follow up appointment with my doctor to see what it means and now I have to follow a specific diet / eating plan and am not allowed to fast this Ramadan doctors say it’s to dangerous with my iron reserves being so low. The diet / eating plan I’m on is very healthy lots of fresh leafy dark vegetables as they are high in iron beets and oranges as well a quinoa fish and oatmeal lots of red meat and eggs. Basically the doctor wants me to eat my iron and vitamins and to be honest sometimes it’s hard as I don’t feel hungry or have a appetite, I am also taking a multivitamin called alive women’s chewable and a liquid plant based iron supplement to see if this will help improve my iron stores .

I will be feeding hungry people to make up for my missed fasts , I was actually looking forward to fasting but now I have to make plans and adjust because ones health is important. I have noticed a improvement with my feet and legs since I started taking the vitamins and plant based iron supplement they don’t go numb as much .