Soothing Lemon Tea

As Salam Alikum

Here is a old recipe that’s good for soothing sore throats and colds I will include the way my mom made it when I was growing up and I will also include the way I make it for my children.

My moms tea

3 lemons sliced

1 quart water

1 teaspoon cayenne pepper

Boil 5 minutes then add to cup add honey and drink hot.

My ways

2 lemons sliced

1 tablespoon turmeric

1 teaspoon ginger

1 teaspoon cinnamon

1 quart water

Boil for 5 minutes then add honey and drink hot.

If I make it for my husband I omit the cinnamon and add 1 teaspoon cayenne pepper for him he likes it very spicy .

It’s also good for sore joints and aches and pains

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I cry a tear
I wake a new, so lost in light
following the rainbow over the hills
are hearts are never still
fly with me I shine so bright
smile and laugh with me showing all your love,
our hearts are free dancing in skies above water drops
down upon my face, tears frozen in despair
dancing with memories of old dreams
I scream another night within my soul
hidden from all eyes , is a silent shame I have carried for you
never realizing it’s your burden !
You threshed  upon me at such a young age telling me it was my shame well no more
I refuse to share your secrets its upon you to bear and answer for what you did ,
I have forgiven you but I haven’t forgotten !sad

Depressed Ranting of a overly tired mind

Everyday is a struggle but some how I get through it. Alhamdulilah if it wasn’t for the Merciful that Allah bestowed upon me, my reading, my deen, I would be back in the darkness of my thoughts. Today I am a little bit depressed, maybe it’s hormonal, maybe it’s the awkward silence that my husband and I are experiencing , He talks to everyone but me. I am in the mind-fog of depression. The depressed mind doesn’t always recognize things as they are. Everything feels like it is a huge chore I am crabby and irritated, easily annoyed and short tempered in I will yell at the drop of a hat , why must I always deal with depression it is like being lost in a thick fog it makes everything distorted and it is hard to find your way out of the fog.

I have been beyond blue for a long time it is a daily struggle living with depression , my doctors say bipolar NOS but I rarely swing into mania mostly it is depression with periods that are hypo-manic so basically I get into moods were I plan stuff like sewing projects and start them yet never finish them or my favorite I clean things weird things I am sure no one else cares if are ever cleaned, another thing is I am having a lot of trouble sleeping it doesn’t help that in the neighborhood there are several dogs that bark at random  and never seem to shut up then there are the babies who wake and fuss then on top of that I have to pee like every five minutes and there is only one bathroom upstairs . I just feel defeated when fighting depression so far nothing has worked or even seemed to help it is like I am walking around wrapped in a thick gray fog that no one else can see but me .

Having depression is like having a invisible wound that just will not heal , to explain it so a non depressed mind will understand the closest I can come is to use a stubbed toe as a example you stub you toe it hurts and is bloody you take care of said toe and it is almost healed when again it gets hurts and the cycle just keeps repeating over and over that is how depression is there is always going to be a cycle of feeling blue and lower than dirt to depressed to even brush your teeth , hair or take care of yourself some people get stuck in that and never get out others learn how to mange somewhat normal looking lives while hiding how they truly feel . I do not know why some people are given depression , bipolar and other invisible illnesses to deal with , but  Allah never gives a person more than he or she can bear .allah does notdon't be sad

 

Quick Floureless Peanut Butter Cookies

1 cup peanut butter
3/4 cup sugar
1/4 cup nutritional yeast
2 eggs
1/2 cup peanuts roughly chopped
1/2 white chips or chocolate chips can also use both
Cream together peanut butter sugar nutritional yeast and eggs add nuts and chips.
Drop from rounded tablespoon or teaspoon depending on what size cookies you want, can make mega cookies as well. Bake on cookie sheet lined with wax paper.
Bake at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 6 to 8 minutes.
Remove from oven cool on wire rack enjoy warm or cold with tea or coffee.

Makes about 2 dozen cookies unless you snack on the dough like I do before it’s baked

* can add cocoa powder 1/2 cup to make chocolate peanut butter cookies just add 1 more egg.

pbwcpbwzaatar and coffee

Liquid laundry detergent

  • -1 bar of Dr. Bronner’s Lavender, Citrus, Peppermint, Almond or Baby soap
  • 1 dry cup of Borax
  • 1 dry cup of  Washing Soda
  • 1 dry cup of  Baking Soda
  • opt. a few drops of tea tree for disinfecting
  • Three gallons of tap water

    grate soap into sauce pan- add 2 cups of water stir, dissolve.
    into a five gallon bucket add Borax, washing soda and tea tree if using.
    dump melted soap liquid into bucket and stir quickly
    add water  stir and put lid on.
    set overnight- measure out 1/2 cup of liquid for light loads and 1 cup for normal.
     cheap liquid, Eco, natural detergent!

Dry Detergent for Clothes

Powdered Detergent

4 lb box Borax

3 lb box Washing Soda

4 lb box baking soda
3 lb container OxyClean (optional….but I have messy toddlers)

2 bars Fels Naptha soap (Dove is another soap I use

1.Grate bars of soap using a fine grater.  I use rubber gloves so that I don’t grate my fingers as well.I don’t grate my fingers as well.

2. In a large 5 gallon bucket, layer all ingredients and mix.  I put the lid on and rolled the bucket around and then used my rubber gloved hands to mix this all up.  It was a workout.

3. Use 2 Tbsp per load.  Sprinkle directly in drum on top of clothes.

*This works great in top loading, front loading, regular, and HE machines.

Inshaallah I will post a recipe for the liquid kind soon

Dear Allah , Help me Understand and Have Patience

Dear Allah,

Bismillah al-Rahman al-Rahim

I am writing this to get all the jumbled words and stuff floating around down on paper so to speak , inshaallah it helps clear and quite my mind.don't be sad

I am struggling and  I feel alone I try and I try to fight this depression it seems never ending like everything is all painted in shades of greys ,blacks and muted dull colors .

I can’t sleep well some nights I don’t even sleep I just lay awake and the tears slide down my face and I don’t even know why I am crying .

I have head aches daily and back pain along with hip pain and neck pain home remedies don’t seem to help and so far the doctors haven’t helped much either 

I know that I have no reason to be depressed it is like my brain is broken and stuck in the depressed mode and I am not sure how to snap out of it , nothing I have tried seems to work , I am either allergic to the medication or it has unwanted side effects or cause other problems so I don’t take the medication .

I pray 5 times a day and some days I even struggle just to pray , I know you already know this and you know everything even stuff I do not know about. I struggle to read the Quran please help me be able to read it more and to understand it , and not get lost and fall off the straight path.

Will I always feel this way?

Will I always feel like I am struggling to do my prayers? When will it feel easier and not like a chore ? I love Islam and prayers it is just so hard some days , my mind endless seems to wonder off or I get lost mid prayer or forget how many rakats I have done some days are just so frustrating when will it not feel this way? When will I feel like a good muslimah?

I feel like I am isolated and alone even when I am surrounded by family and friends why do I feel like this? Will I always feel like this ? I feel rootless like a tumbleweed blowing in the wind like I am in one place the get blown to another place where is my home?

When will I understand enough Arabic and be able to speak it clearly and not feel self conscious when talking to people?

When will the colors come back ?

Is my outlook to always feel and look depressed? Is there any hope for not being depressed?Can you show me the way out of the depression?

Will I always cry and not even know the reason why I am crying ? Is the crying a good thing? does it help me , I am trying to understand and be patience ,I am trying to be happy I am thankful for healthy children and healthy family who help out .

Will sleep always be a struggle?

Allah Most merciful one I promise that I will never give up I will fight to do prayers and learn more will keep trying to learn Arabic and keep trying to read and understand all of the Quran! I will never stop  fighting the depressed feelings I will not give up this is my promise to you , I am your humble muslimahmuslimah praying